New year, new ??

It's a little weird how things just come together to remind me of the past, just around this time of the year. And it's not even due to any particular "rediscover this day" or "n years ago today" feature of any service I use. No. Just internet, pure and simple.

I see a post commemorating the 10th anniversary of KnB. I haven't been with the series for that long, not even half that time - I'm also pretty sure I haven't even much of the official material that exists. Yet, when I actually started watching the anime... There were good things around.

Haikyuu!!'s fourth season is announced. When I started watching that, I was still attending Japanese classes. Still had my group. The way it aired, the actual time I got to watch it was early morning before I headed out to class. That half-asleep state, waking up while watching a new episode of an anime, so it's pretty much stuck in my head for the rest of the morning, including most of my class... Good things.

Tumblr did a stupid yesterday and emailed me about being tagged in a post. By a particular Haikyuu!! blogger I've not heard of for years. Turned out the post I was tagged in was made three years ago. They were one of those people who could really effortlessly boost me, get me to do stuff, inspire me. I liked having them around. I remember one particular morning I was waiting for my group mates before our Japanese class. It was cold outside, they were late, it was way past their bedtime but they were still online - the only person I could talk to. And they kept me company. Back then I still had good things around.

I also got an old post of mine flagged on an old, old account of mine on Tumblr. What with their new rules and all. And I went to check and... Hm. Yes. Another person I loved talking to, who's mostly out of my life now because - I don't even know why. Just fade away, grow apart, and it takes more than what's considered to be worth it to rectify that, I suppose? But it's another reminder of another nice thing I used to have.

Now... I dunno. People disappeared. The few that remain are always too busy and/or too tired. Like I'm just not worth their time and energy. That feeling that everything is one-way only, that I'm the only one always making the effort to try to communicate and get us to do things together? It's growing more and more intense every day.