You're not forgotten. Your spirit lives on. I'm still here...

2021 is over. It's 2022. But now the celebrations and holidays are also over and as if by the flick of a switch, everything just gets back to the gunk of regular everydays. It always leaves me kind of disoriented and out of place. Yeah, th…

It's a funny thing, being shown a marriage proposal photo, just out of the blue. You know, the classic setup: guy on his knee, offering up the ring, girl being oh-so-overwhelmed and shocked and happy. Is it a commemorative professional pho…

It is just ten minutes before midnight when I wake up. I don't feel well rested, I don't feel calm, I don't want to get up because it's the middle of the night and it will be a long day that I don't want to start. But I can't sleep either.…

So the holidays are gone. No tree, no lights, no decoration anymore, it's all been done away with yesterday. In the dark of the morning, at around 7. I guess that answers the questions about the lingering spirit, huh? Rewatching Kouhaku, w…

It's such a weird period, this time of the year. Before Christmas, it always starts way too early. One almost becomes numb by the time the actual holiday rolls around, because we grow so used to all seasonal items, decoration, lights. But …

お誕生日おめでとう！ Diligent, kind, honest. いつ／でも。

Happy birthday, Junya. Again. Your smiles are still beyond the ultimate. YOU are still beyond the ultimate, and that will never change. Thank you for everything. How quickly has yet another year gone by. And it still hurts, so it's still d…

More than a year now since we had to say goodbye to the DF app... And it still hurts just as much. And at that time, at least there was a final live to look forward to. And the obscure Chinese version of the app as well. The shutdown itsel…

Missing someone isn't replying "I miss you too", once in a month, to messages they send. Missing someone is wanting to find the time, or even make the effort to make time to meet, or at least talk to them. To discuss what's been going on i…

One year since one week after the announcement - it took me that long last year to process it and gather my thoughts and feelings and be able to write about it. Happy birthday to the blog, I suppose. I've been rewatching DF... It is diffic…

Even Sadness fits, I suppose. If anyone gets that reference at all. But yes, today marks the anniversary of the beginning of the end for Dream Festival. I can't forget. I won't forget. I don't want to let them fade away... I hope others wo…

It's a little weird how things just come together to remind me of the past, just around this time of the year. And it's not even due to any particular "rediscover this day" or "n years ago today" feature of any service I use. No. Just inte…

I'm cold and it seems like the gods decided to mourn too - in other words, it's raining over here. Which at least seems to give an actual autumnal vibe to the weather, at least. But that's neither here, nor there... This week's been so wei…

It's already October. Where did all the time go since that fateful March announcement? Hm. It's been hard. All the memories I've wanted to process and save, but with so many other things going on, the emotional drain is just too big. Reaso…

Yellow used to be my absolute favourite colour back when I was a little kid. Before and throughout kindergarten, even during the first few years of elementary school. And then somehow it just got phased out, sort of. Things changed, life h…

Oh, gods... I didn't even realise it's that time already. I knew it was scheduled to start on the 16th, but... And it's already the 16th in Japan... This is so unreal. How are we even supposed to feel? How are we supposed to have fun and h…

One week ago at this time we already knew the end was upon us. The announcement was abrupt and unexpected, came right in the middle of the Academy Awards, and while we still tried to hold on to our hopes while waiting for that emergency br…